Brian Bergeron

So, I’ve come to accept that I’m not a very good blogger. That’s not to say that I’ll never become a good one but at my current condition, I kind of suck. My friend Andy, he’s a good blogger. My posts ramble, drift in and out of focus, and I’ll go through periods where I write everyday, then I won’t write for a week, and then I’ll post two in one day, and it’s a mess. Sometimes I go into a post and start off making a point then the post ends and it’s about something else. I’m not saying this to apologize. I thought it would be cool to be a blogger and I was like, “Hell, I’ll pick up what I need to know over time” but I salute anyone who is a real, legitimate blogger because this stuff is hard. Thanks to the people who consistently read my blog because you are my friends and not necessarily people who think I’m particularly good at this blogging business!

**COMPLETE SUBJECT CHANGE**

I’m in a good mood today for a few reasons:

1. I’m listening to Spoon and they’re a great band.
2. The move is almost complete. I mean, everything’s THERE but we almost have things settled a point where we can walk around our apartment unrestricted by crap all over the floor.
3. I haven’t recorded for about a week so I’m once again excited at the prospect of the album (rather than burnt out from being in the studio for a week).
4. Gary and I finally booked a show yesterday in Nashua, NH for next Wednesday and along with a show in Vermont on the 18th and a show at Northeastern on the 20th, it fills my show quota for the month (which means I can continue to live my luxurious lifestyle and pay off the album). 
5. It is the farthest point away from teaching my SAT-prep classes (which are on Wednesday and Thursday).

Let’s talk about 5 for a bit. I know it’s not necessarily about music but I think it relates. Teaching these classes are one of the more difficult things I’ve ever had to do. I feel like I was a little under-trained for the position and there is a ton of prep-time involved. I’ve never TAUGHT before, other than a few guitar lessons here and there but in something like this, I definitely lack the self-confidence to be an authority. When I get nervous, I mumble and talk fast and I have to slow down my whole body to deal with the class. That being said, I think it will spread into my music and my being in general. I’m learning to respect what I do a little more, stand up a little taller, and I think by being able to present in front of these students will give me the confidence to be able to win over a crowd that I wouldn’t normally be able to win over or to network or talk to people that I normally shy away from. So, rad. It’s been tough but I think once I know the subject matter cold, I will be able to focus on teaching skills and my confidence will improve and the job will be (practically) easy.

So, I’m glad that I don’t have to teach until Wednesday so I can not worry about it until Monday when I start to prep my classes.

Oh yea, #6–I’m going to see Ryan Adams on Sunday.